I need a good whine.

Have you ever had a day when you don't want the life you have been dealt. Don't get me wrong a have a really good life and a good family but I am completely worn out! Between recovery with Brooklyn and 6 month old, Andrew farming and now hurting my back I have had it. I just laid in bed last night and wanted to give up. If I heard one more cry, one more MAMA or anything else I was going to lose it! Today is a little better. Brooklyn's breath is just killing me, I am not sure if that is part of getting your tonsils ourt but DANG!! Anyways I feel better now! THANKS to those who listened.!

I Love My Husband

Although my husband never looks at my blog I publicly want to annouce I love my husband and am so proud of him and all he has accomplished and overcome. Lately a few people who's names will stay unannouced have choose to bad mouth my husband and to me of all people. To tell me just what they think of him. Well to those people you can keep you two cents to yourself because I don't want to hear it. My husband is a great father and a wonderful spouse. He and I have came a long way since marrying almost 4 years ago. I love the way he will go to town and then call to tell he has a suprise for me only to show up with raspberry filled donuts. My FAV! I love that he loves to shop as much as I do but doesn't indulge that love quite as ofter as I do. I love it that he loves to farm. I never thought I would say that but I do. He really knows how to work. I love it that he has dreams for us and for himself and that he never gives up and is always trying to do his best. I love it that he wants me to stay home and allows me to do that. I love it that he is so cute and that we make such cute babies. I love the way he gets home really late and yet will cuddle up next to me in bed, smelling like fertilizer and all! I love it when you can really get him to giggle, he sounds just like a little boy. I love it that he laughs at his own jokes. I love his stories, he is going to be the best old guy. He will have great stories to tell the grandkids. I love the way he loves his girls and that they have him wrapped around their fingers. I love the nicknames he has for all of us, VERN, MONKEY AND PEANUT. I love it that he is spiritual and honors his priesthood.That each time he gives one of us a blessing it just gets bettter and better. Most of all I love it that he picked me and that he loves me! I needed to for myself to write how much I love my husband!

Shaun's Eagle!

Ben and Shaun both got there eagles that night! Way to GO!
Drew and his hero Shaun!
All the scouts!

Two Sundays ago which would have been the 27th my brother Shaun got his eagle! I am quite proud of him! I planned on writing about him on my blog but due to technical difficulties with our internet I have been unable to!

Before and After

No clue what was in store for her. She got a new dolly for the occassion.
Brooklyn feeling like a bus ran over her. On her way home from the hospital. I feel so bad for the gal!
As of today she is still quite moody when her pain medicine wears off but has attempted to eat some fries which is good!! I think hers and my patience are running thin. Pray for both of us!

Brooklyn's update

Brooklyn is doing pretty well. Thanks to those who posted comments. The night before she went in I was so sick to my stomach. Andrew told me to chill because it wasn't like she was going in for open heart surgery or anything, but seeing my children hurting really stresses me.
Anyways everything went good. We got there about 7:30 in the morning. Brooklyn looked so cute walking in with her back pack, dolly and new jammies. (I will post picture later.) We got into her room and the doctor came in and filled us in on what was going on. He asked if we had any questions and without skipping a beat Brooklyn answers "NO THANKS."
She was quite happy going back to surgery and I will have you know I didn't cry as they wheeled her away like I thought I would. Coming out of surgery was a totally different thing. Her room was right across the entrance to surgery so when the brought her into recovery she was freaking out-literly!! They finally couldn't handle her in recovery so they brought her into the room, kicking, thrashing and screaming! SCARY! This went on for a little over a half an hour, including her pulling out her IV. The doctor called deforia. That some coming off the anastetia will act that way. After about a half an hour we were able to calm her down enough to recieve some medicine. Thank goodness. It was peace after that! Our next big hurdle was getting her to drink. They would let us go until she drank so much. I know how stubborn she is and knew that was going to be a hassle. Finally at about 5 we were able to come home. Brooklyn is now enjoying my parents array of Disney movies. We are staying in Pocatello in case we have any problems we will be close to the hospital. She talks a little wierd, but she already has her appeitite back and it is hard telling her no to certian foods but we'll make it!!

See I am so STRESSED I can't even spell it right!

Stessed!

I can not wait until Friday is over with! The stress of knowing that my little girl who seems healthy at this very moment will be in pain tomorrow kill me. I have been so stressed about it all week that it has made me feel as though I have the flu. I don't know why I am stressing about this so much but I am. I know in the long run this will be the best but I need to tell that to my nerves. I will keep all updated on how she does. Thanks for the comments!